Have I told you this kind of story before?
In 2003, we completed a few months of probation period, and we finished our first task with ease.
In 2004, we were employees of the month, and achieved many best results, but we couldn’t be satisfied with those alone.
We weren’t able to endure anymore and we started wishing for more things.
In 2005 we branched overseas, and we thought it would be easy like how it was in Korea.
For our first challenge, we recorded our worst results and from then on, our confidence dropped.
A languge we couldn’t even speak,
Everyday, we stayed at the place we were living at and our company
They said it was for our own sake and that that imprisonment was not an imprisonment.
Extreme loneliness, tears, rage; all of these made us united as one.
Even if anything were to happen by chance, we said that we would not leave each other…
While saying that we would only resemble each other’s good side,
We made up our minds and ran off.
Finally, one day, we achieved the best like how we had earnestly wished for.
We each took our handphones and contacted our family and friends.
That day was approaching,
From then on, everything started turning out well.
Selling tens of thousands of records and winning every award, we felt our results.
Even though tears flowed, it felt like they fell gently.
Because compared to any kind of sadness, we were happy.
Till the end, we do not give up and come running.
Strength greater than any other strength.
As expected, because we were one.
You who have already changed (I can’t always stay there.)
I will turn my back on you first (It wasn’t possible to just keep on crying.)
You, who are going further away from me gradually, I will just call your name. (Please fly me far away to that sky)
Running for a while,
Covered by a huge wall beyond imagination
The thought “Has it always been this dark” remained in my head for a while
Such a thing happened once
Business expenses which were increasing, Debts which kept increasing
Something that I couldn’t handle on my own
This is something our boss said to us in the past
If you need anything, just say it, since we will always be family.
Whatever you need, just say it
Those words gave me courage and I made a phone call to ask for a favour
Though I felt something strange, because he was someone I could rely on,
Because they were a family which would be together with us forever,
I gathered the courage to request the favour, but what I received was just a cold rejection.
Though I was very angry with his reply, I held it in and requested for the favour again.
He hung up.
I couldn’t stop the tears which flowed.
I was in a state of confusion over the thought that they weren’t the family that I had believed they were for that period.
When he needed us, we were family, When we needed him, we were strangers.
It felt that as time went by, more amazing things happened.
Hearing that we had finally created success overseas and achieved results which we never imagined we would,
I entered the office with light steps on our pay day.
We members looked at each other with excited gazes while facing each other.
We praised each other saying that we had worked hard.
But the accounts statement we received at that time recorded that we were at a deficit.
Thinking that I had seen wrongly, I tried verifying again,
Everything were expenses.
Damn, How could that huge amount have been solely used to cover the expenses?
What kind of expenses? Where did that huge sum of money fly to?
I couldn’t believe it at all so I requested that they show me the detailed statement of the accounts which I had never calculated before.
They said they understood and they would show it to me, but in the end, I never saw those pieces of paper and only worked.
As time went by, my curiosity grew.
The more we put our heads together to think about it, the more we got a headache.
Lastly, if I were to say just one more thing,
Those things which we did for the company,
Were they truly meant for the company?
Ok, Let’s just say that they were. We are kind and will overlook it.
For us and the company, who have been together for many years, we will forget it.
Even so, that wasn’t right. Those weren’t words you should be saying to us.
Did you really plan to disappoint us right till the very end?
From the calls I received, you talked behind the team member’s back. It was really hard to trust you.
It was exactly as what the seniors had said. Did you want to keep the people who make money for you?
He said the family which we talked about in the company would make things difficult for us if we were to leave to company.
Those words by that senior could not leave my head.
Though there is more that I want to say, when this song gets out,
There would be someone who would torment us. Thinking of this makes me frustrated and I don’t think I can continue.
In any case, though it is tough, we are working hard to live well.
Despite someone tormenting us, we are working hard to really smile.
This is definitely not an effort which we made just for a product.
This is an effort made because as a human, on the day that I die, I do not want to have any regrets.
Yes, in the end it is JYJ.
Yesterday and Today, though I thought for a whole day,
I am able to feel the difference between then and now at 25, my age.
Now I will put down my pen.
Even so, my heart is at ease.
Because I can feel the fans’ love…
I did it because I thought I would be able to empty the pile of burdens I had in my heart.
Though nothing is easy, I am at ease inside.
We are happy because we have a family which is you fans.
I am always thinking of you all…
I love you.
So, will you be able to believe in us till the end?
Will you be able to say that you love us?
Since we will work hard till forever, will you be able to be at our side.
Since, to us, you are still here,
And to you, we are here.
I promise, I will hang out everything and show it to you.
Yes, we are JYJ.
“You have raised the castle walls and closed the door firmly too.
They say that love is not an imprisonment.
Love is releasing someone to be free.
I don’t even wish for such things.
We, made by you, are not even half of half of half of that,
And will forever be frogs in a well.”
(Excerpt from Musical Mozart)
Though there are still many things I want to talk about,
I will stop here today.
141001 Jaejoong’s acceptance speech on winning Top Male Excellence Award for the 2014 Korea Drama Awards:“Thank you. First of all, I would like to thank PD Yoo Chulyong, PD Choi Jungkyu and all the staffs. I also sincerely thank many actors/actresses who have diligently immersed into the filming with your smiles and who have helped me a lot, even though we have had hard time filming. I told myself not to be nervous when I came to the stage, but [I became nervous] before I knew it… *fans cheering* Before I knew it… because I don’t have many chances to appear on TV, so I’m being very… a little bit nervous… *fans cheering* I’m very thankful to my family, CEO Baek Changju of our company and my members Yoochun and Junsu. This is my first drama as main lead. Thank you very much for giving me this award. I’ll try my best to prepare my next project, so that I could greet you again on TV with better image. Thank you.” (cr. x)
“If I become an entertainer, the women in this town would go crazy.”
Getting bad again for no reason after you’ve been so happy for a long time is literally one of the worst feelings ever